Dear friend,

I hate the moments when I realize that if I won’t react rapidly I’ll be turning into a creature of habit, stuck in a scenario that is ingeniously knitted by numerous intangible elements.

We all need to feel safe and routine brings us exactly that.  How perfect would everything be if you’d have every little detail considered and analyzed. Would that make you better prepared for what’s to come? Slowly, I realize that nothing can make me ready for the unpredictable.

But I ask myself, how many opportunities have just passed me by in those long nights spent on worrying and trying to find answers on life dilemmas that, as time later proved, weren’t so difficult after all. I have always forgotten to stop for a second and just appreciate what I was experiencing. I live in the future with stories of the past kept in a mental journal. I set my goals and try to achieve them. Doing so, I’ve thought until now that certain parts of the present have to be sacrificed. Enough with this! The feeling of totally letting go of everything that was constraining me was more than welcomed for my concerned mind. I experienced this sensation in a cozy armchair, sitting in front of an opened balcony of an old Portuguese building and admiring Lisbon’s city center at night. Everything around me got quiet and slowly vanished, and I was left enjoying that particular moment and the view that caught my attention. It was that certain instant of the present that I’ve been longing for. And the truth was that I felt proud of myself with my good and bad and opened to anything that my future will deliver.

So, I must admit that my New Year’s resolution is sort of unclear, something that can’t be really achieved and just be crossed on a to-do list. I would simply want to leave my doubts apart and taste more of the present. This promise is unquantifiable and I won’t be sure if I can achieve it or not. But this type of uncertainty, that maybe in the past would have made me feel uncomfortable, will now help me in better adapting to this random future of mine.

I hope the days to come will bring you the adventure of your life and will get you closer to what is really important to you, whatever that might be. I could only suggest a small to-do list with cities that maybe someday will be the scenery for your stories. In this case they are quantifiable and accompanied by soothing music.

Yours truthfully,

Bogdan

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